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Tha Producer:
Take my hand lets go,
Somewhere we can rest our souls.
We'll sit where it's warm,
You say look we're here alone.

Chorus:
I was running in circles,
I hurt myself,
Just to find my purpose.

Everything was so worthless,
I didn't deserve this,
But to me you were perfect.

I'm scattered through this life.
If this is life I'll say good bye.

She's gone like an angel,
With wings let me burn tonight.

Chorus
I was running in circles
I hurt myself,
Just to find my purpose.

Everything was so worthless,
I didn't deserve this,
But to me you were perfect.


Johnny 3:
I see me writin on this paper.
Prayin for some savior.
Wishin intake her and save her.

In a world so, so godless and thoughtless,
I don't know how we wrought this,
All the love that you brought us.

It feels like I'm killin myself.
Just wheelin myself.
Just to pray for some help.

I'd give it all just to have, have your eternity.
Cause it's all that assures me.
It's worth all that hurts me.

I'd give you my heart,
And let you just hold it.
I'd give you my soul,
But I already sold it.

On that day that day,
The day I walked away in December.
I will always remember.
I'll regret it forever.

I remember brown eyes,
So sad and blue skies.
Turned to darkness and night.
I'm so sick of the fight.

I won't breathe unless you breathe,
Won't bleed unless you bleed.
Won't be unless you be,
'Till I'm gone and I can sleep.

Chorus
I was running in circles
I hurt myself,
Just to find my purpose.

Everything was so worthless,
I didn't deserve this,
But to me you were perfect.


Tha Producer:
I've gone away,
Seen better times in yesterday (I hurt myself).
It's hard to say,
That everything will be okay (I hurt myself).

I've gone away,
Seen better times in yesterday (I hurt myself).
It's hard to say,
That everything will be okay (I hurt myself)

I am extrememly devasted right now. I just got news from Rodney's older mother that last night my best friend died from an overdose of drugs!! TT.TT I loved him so much he was like a brother to me and now he is gone, I mean, what is going on anymore?  I don't understand why he had to leave me he was the only person I could talk to, the only person who knew every single shitty thing about me, the one person who knew my crushes, who texted me non-stop, the only person who had plenty of jokes with me. one of the very few people who could make me laugh and smile and be happy, he could cheer me up no matter what. he always wanted what was best for me and I always wanted what was best for him. he was my best friend and we were so close and then something like this happens i just cant seem to believe it, its almost as if I don;t want to believe it. my mond hasnt totally wrapped around ti yet. But I still dont understand. rodney was never a bad person and i knew he did drugs, i mean we told verything to each other, but i just thought that maybe since i asked him to stop he did, apparently not. I just miss him so much already and the pain is almost unbearable. ive already lost about three friends in the past and now him, i dont think i can take this anymore. i miss you rodney. i love you. RIP. <3

p.s. Katie if youre reading this, your boyfriend was an amaxzing person and Im sure he will always be with you. i know you guys were in a fight, but he really did love you. Im so sorry.

im in trouble im addicted to getting hurt, ive been popping pill after pill, trying to get my head straight, trying to overbear the pain until the next day, but it aint happening im an addict whos half asleep while the other half of me is trapped in a series of bad dreams, my eyes collapsed, suicide was an aftermath, im falling down erasing memories you gave to me, im still alive but nothing you can say will make me breathe, so please take away the pain that hurts me, i dont want to be alone, im scared, help me, these pills are taking over my brain, side effects causing pain, i think im going insane, the feeling of being alive just isnt enough, syringes are stuffed with heroin, im feeling the rush inside of my veins, and my brains fried from feeling too much, i cant take this pain cause im dying, i cant sleep for nights cause im crying, creating thoughts of dying, eventually severed my brain, irratated my veins, intoxicated my system, its gone on for days, im begging for some wisdom, thses pills are taking over my brain, side effects causing pain, i think im going insane.

the town i live in is full of stuck-up rich people with big egos who think they can get whatever they want whenever they want it just because they have money and were spoiled as kids. well i got news flashes for them, thats not true. ugh i hate garden city. they are also obsessed with lacrosse, stupid sport. & the guys in my high school think its alright to fuck a girl and then leave her. and thee girls are all sluts and bitches. there are skateboarding posers in my town too, they think they can skateboard but they cant, it takes an average garden citian about a month to learn something as simple as an ollie on a board when it took me an hour. also they longboard and think they can call themselves skateboarders when longboarding isnt skateboarding. longboarding is for posers who cant skateboard. and longboards are also usually used for transportation. another thing the kids think that theyre so school by being obnoxious and immature. i mean come on people cant you grow up already? and the seniors wonder why our school might take away their privelges of leaving school grounds during lunch. this town is just ridiculous, really ridiulous. another thing is that the kids think they can be bipolar and get away with it. im sorry but that doesnt flyu with me. the whole 'ima be mad at you one day and then your best friend the next' crap doesnt go with me at all. i hate gardencity and it is a hell hole. anyone wanna switch towns with me? i will gladly do so.

Fuck all haters on youtube! Stop commenting on videos and calling our bands gay and shit if you dont like it then why are you even listening to it? faggots get a life.

"Im trying not to love you, Im trying not to care, Im trying  not to live my life, wihsing you were there, Im trying not to wonder where you are or what you do, im sorry I cant help myself, I fell in love with you."

I'm 14. In High School, Ima Freshman, currently sating a Junior, and I live in NY. I live with my mom and step-dad who happens to be the devil himself. He such a fucking bastard and is always rude to other people. He threatened to throw me out the window one time, my mom and I used ot be very close until she married him. -.- And now she hates me. I visit my dad every other weekend and in the summer but it still doesnt work. Im rarely allowed onto the computer because my step sister got int trouble at my moms house and we are not allowed onto it now but when im at my real dad's house im almost always on my latop. I have two half brothers, one 15, and one 18. Their names are Alexian and Isaac and I roleplay almost everyday. My step sister and I are best friends and my real best friend lives in texas :[ His name is Miguel. I've went through a horrible long relationship with a stalker boyfriend who threatened to kill himself several times and laimed he loved me. I am labeled emo all the time which bugs me. I am Atheist and skateboard a lot. I love music and I play the guitar. I listen to Death Metal, Classic rock, heavy metal etc. etc. Sometimes Crunk & occasionally NeverShoutNever. I love Anime, & go Yaoi! lol, I am outgoing hyper and when I get cranky stay away because I WILL bite you. ask any of my friends,,,I bit Joe the other day. I am a tomboy and when I gorw up I want to be a mechanic for the airforce. I hate my life and mostly everyone in it but sometimes I can be very caring if you get on my good side. If youre going to be my friend, im warning you, you do NOT get second chances and I am ver big on the whole trust thing. That is all i think goodbye.

Alright, so I have this boyfriend who is 16 & we go to the same High School. Apparently over the summer he had gotten drunk while he was medication, sent to the hospital, almost died in the ER room, etc. etc. So...his mom flipped a shit on the kid (lets call him Bob) who gave my boyfriend the beer, she was all like "ima sue you and shit". So bob, got into trouble with his parents and now he is not allowed to hang out with my boyfriend anymore. heres the thing they were like best friends and now they cant even hang out of school. bob told me this and i wasnt suposed to know because when my boyfriend found out, he flipped out and was all like "bob wtf dude" and now theyre fighting! idk what to do and i need help because its not my fault and i think my boyfriend is PMSing ever since he found out i knew. wtf dude, like really? guys are so fucking complicated, no offences peoples, i mean most of my friends are guys, but omg. This is why I am bisexual, because sometimes guys are too much. Anyway back onto topic...HELP...please comment or something. contact me please. 

omfg, i am so sick and fucking tired of Catholics, or Christians or anyone coming up to me and being all like, "omg youre atheist? you must be worshiping the devil." No bitch if you knew what atheisim was it means you dont have a religion, & another thing is that some of them also say "Oh youre a communist if youre atheisim." Again, no bitch, that hsa nothing to do with being an atheist. maybe you people should get your facts straight ok? another thing, if I ever get into a conversation with someone who has a religion and we are lets say, exchanging ideas, they will suddenly be all like "youre wrong what do u know?" and wont even let me express my ideas, fuck you bitch, i let you talk and I didnt say you were wrong, i respect what you believe in but that doesnt mean I have to believe in it, and Im allowed to have my opinion, besides i respect other religions and peoples opinion they should respect me too. damn, im so pissed, my friends ex-girlfriend was all like "you fucking atheist shut up and go to hell." to him and i was like wtf bitch stfu. wow. we are not bad people we are just trying to live amongst everyone in peace and hope we can live happily too, we are NOT bad people, we do NOT worhsip the devil, & we are NOT communists! If you people did your history you would know this! I seriously just want people to know we are not bad people. First of all if we worshiped the devil we wouldnt be atheist because being atheist means you dont believe in any of that, and second of all communism has to do with politics where the fuck did that one come from?ugh!!!!!!!!